And the journey begins….
I can’t clearly remember when the dream began nor when did i take the first step towards it. But the eagerness of fulfilling it and holding it in my hands seems to haunt me years ago. The realization of the dream is vivid and i have imagined many times how great would it feel.
BYE BYE COMFORT ZONE…
I’ve had a simple life, average but satisfying. I’ve always had my parents and the rest of my close relatives withing my reach. I have my own space, I’m in charge of my time, I eat what I want and I’m comfortable in most every way possible. But, life is never easy and the path to the dream is not comfortable. It is steep and it is rocky. Something I wasn’t used to. The thought, that in order for me to attain my Big Dream, I have to take on new things, things I knew I wasn’t capable or good at, but as they say, MIND OVER MATTER. I had no other choice but to leave home and start on the journey in an unfamiliar place. A place which is a complete opposite of my serene, small populated home.
The morning of my departure, I was drowned in a sea of mix emotions. Living in the city excites me, but living there alone scares me. Leaving behind the life I have lived for 21 years isn’t simple. It will take a lot from me to be able to cope up with the new environment and new people. I just have to instill in myself that every ounce of sacrifice will be worth it. At the end of the road, I know I’ll possess what is rightfully mine.
As the plane elevates and move away from the island of Northern Samar, I look at the window and had a good look to the place I call home and which I’ll see again in five months time…
THE UNFAMILIAR..
An hour later, the voice on the speaker informed the passengers that we have safely landed in Ninoy Aquino International Airport. My feet were eager to feel the Manila, my eyes were waiting for the sights of the giant buildings and infrastructures and my mind was waiting for that consolation — the feeling ease and comfort. It was something that came too soon but left when I was left alone in Manila after a week of enjoyment with mom.
The feeling of nostalgia crept into me when I woke up that Sunday morning and realized that I was now alone in the unfamiliar city of Manila. The rest of my family were miles and miles away from me and it was a truth I wasn’t prepared for. The feeling of comfort was a not permanent and that moment I knew, the coming days will be tougher.
NEW FRIENDS..
Living with 84 other girls in a single house is something I haven’t imagined. I’ve never been in a dormitory in my college days and so I’m a neophyte in this boarding house event. The morning I moved in in my dormitory, I wasn’t sure what to expect. But I was looking forward to those new people whom I’ll share the room with together with an old friend Jeanpearl.
It’s fun having friends whom you can laugh with and share crazy stories with. It makes the burden of missing home lighter, more tolerable. On the other hand, my new friends also turned out to be studying buddies, which encourages me to study every now and then. Lucky I am, i’m surrounded with people who helps.
TRUST THE DREAM GIVER..
The journey to the Land of promise is not a piece of cake. As a song says, it is a long and winding road, with too many unpredictable surprises along the way. Surprises which can make or break you, which are either situations or persons, which are neither easy nor painless but tolerable if you are determined. There may be those persons who doubts you, which often includes yourself, situations which breaks your confidence and blocks your way and even outside factors which hardens the journey.
For this, we need someone who would light our path and guide us in our every step. We need to lift up our journey towards our big dream to that one who gave us the dream itself, our very good brother, God. Knowing someone up there looks down on me in everything I engage in gives me assurance that whatever lies at the end of this road, I’d either posses that dream that I’m feasting my eyes upon now, or something better, which best fits me. I know what I want, but GOD up there knows what’s best..
GOODLUCK AND GODBLESS :)
